I don’t want to lose the feelings I wrote down so I am putting them in here today, to save that day in my memory… “It’s been almost two weeks since my Ottobot drowned. The guilt I feel over not being able to save him is hiding at the edge …
Oh my gosh I am struggling today! I have been forgetting everything..and I mean everything. I forgot my daughter didn’t have school today, I forgot she had gymnastics yesterday…I may have a little depression happening as I want to cry because I have been wholly unsuccessful at hanging the floating …
I am looking around my home and realize I need to get something checked off my list. The playroom is unfinished in my efforts to create a play haven, in fact that it would be slightly dangerous to a newly crawling baby (which I don’t have quite yet). My thank …
Today I am blue…wouldn’t Otto love that! He would want to know where I was blue since it is his favorite color. That’s an odd saying, but I truly feel it, laying like a heavy curtain over my whole body & on my soul. It’s an absolutely beautiful spring day but I …
Today is a day full of bill paying, accounting, and a sick baby. In life generally there are days that seem to be two steps forward, one step back and that is today. I have help to work on taxes and the baby had the worst night since she was …
We are having a tumultuous day…J having had his surgery is feeling a little peckish I can tell. We have had a wonderful visit with our cousins, but my hubby being an invalid for the time, was left behind for most of it. I didn’t mean to, but I believe …
This morning my mother woke me up with “I am sorry I didn’t say the right things that you needed me to say the other day” with the most genuine spirit and love flowing from her shadowy figure in my dark room. I immediately replied “mom its alright, I know …
Today the sun is shining and we have been so busy! Jason had arthroscopic knee repair yesterday and I have enjoyed taking care of him even if he is a little cranky. I feel best when I am needed and am able to give to others. We had to …
I bought my daughter Elle a Veggie Tales book at the gas station on the way back from dropping our cousin back off at college in Columbia, MO on Tuesday. It was overpriced, but we misplaced her last VT book and I wanted her to have one that was special. …
Today is an overcast day, and i feel it deep in my heart. As i hold my 6m old Alyse on my lap and type I have a hollow ache inside my entire body. I have been keeping my type A fix-it all personality busy from morning to night with …