Oh my goodness…so this is a combination of having somehow missed my last two therapy sessions, having all the busy party stuff over and then finding out I am not pregnant all swirling together. I am a mess. I have no interested in combing my hair. I dress the girls …
This weekend is a celebration of love and life and will all be aligned with keeping our memories of Otto. I don’t know how I feel. That’s probably a bad thing if you ask my therapist. The pain doesn’t lessen, i just have more callouses over it. The surrealism around …
As I try to spend my days devoted to loving honestly and deeply, I can see myself going up and down in an emotional rollercoaster. I think about the things I am doing wrong, and maybe those sometimes I am doing right…I am questioning my parenting skills and worrying. It’s …
“Does it make you cry when I mention Otto?” my 7 year old nephew asked me this afternoon. I am always strong in my answers to these kind of questions. I reply “not all the time, sometimes I do cry, but right now I am ok.” I feel like I …
“It is through awareness of My Presence that Peace displaces negative feelings.” Doesn’t it seem like this is an ever present battle of the mind? It is in mine at least. I want to break this down and chew on it so it will soak deeper into my membrane and …
I haven’t been on here to post in almost a month. A dear friend pointed out it was 4/20. That was two months to the day since Otto passed. We’ve gone to London and back, had company in town & all of our fun and busy activities are winding down. …
The girls and I have so much to do today. Elle has play therapy at 11, we have a play date at 1230 and acting at 430. Then, once J gets home we have dinner plans with one of the amazing women who have befriended me from BBMs. (Building Better …
The legend of the dogwood tree, author unknown, is as follows: In Jesus’ time, the dogwood grew To a stately size and a lovely hue. ‘Twas strong and firm, its branches interwoven. For the cross of Christ its timbers were chosen. Seeing the distress at this use of their wood …
I haven’t written my thoughts and feelings in days. It certainly isn’t that I haven’t had any…its so much more that Easter was hard. Of course it was and I knew it would be, everyone knew it would be. I was a total stuffer. I stuffed all of those really …
We had so much busy fun today! My mother came this morning and we pretty much spent the entire day doing fun stuff…to the point that I haven’t started anything for tomorrow’s festivities..uh-oh. But, she did play with the baby and Elle while I cleaned up the playroom and did …