Today is a day full of bill paying, accounting, and a sick baby. In life generally there are days that seem to be two steps forward, one step back and that is today. I have help to work on taxes and the baby had the worst night since she was a newborn. With the extra level of cautiousness that is on me I of course spent the better part of the day at sick walk-in at the pediatrician and then spending $100 on the necessary meds to heal her ear infection and thrush. Poor little! She needs ibuprofen, anti-fungal topical and oral, antibiotics and a new oral vitamin. No problem, we’ve got this and I am happy to give her all of the time, attention and money necessary to make her better. Probably a little overkill, but I will never under do it again. I spoke with another mother today and we discussed the guilt we have over what happened to our littles. We spoke about the long term and the short term, our relationships and how they change and the “never going to be the same” feeling we carry, evidently for the rest of our lives.
